Sunday, April 29, 2012

Good out of Evil

Tragedies struck
Piercing the bubble of safety
Fragility vaporised
Sinking in the depths of vulnerability
Unseen and unexpected
Unforeseen shadows of war
Massacre of the innocence
Testing the thresholds of relationships
To stay and protect
Or to run away
Mind over heart or vice versa
Pride and selfishness set aside
Better to make peace than proving what's right
Right and wrong is subjective
Unclaimable grey areas
The only standards that are true
Is Divine and from above
Meek and humble is the Truth
Loving and patient
Never running away or forsaking
The only rights ever worth fighting
Are the rights in the Divine's hands
Restoring to wholeness
Poor or rich in the world's eyes
For the One from Above
Brings good out of evil

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Our Greatest Need

I thought this was really good so I am reposting this. Roy Lessin wrote this.

If our greatest need had been information,
God would have sent us an educator.

If our greatest need had been technology,
God would have sent us a scientist.

If our greatest need had been money,
God would have sent us an economist.

If our greatest need had been pleasure,
God would have sent us an entertainer.

But our greatest need was forgiveness,
so God sent us a Saviour.

-Roy Lessin

Keep up the Race

I remember the times when I was young. My mother used to wake up every morning without fail at 4.30 am to make breakfast for me and my sister. I never used to really appreciate that but now I do. I sometimes wonder if there are days that she would be too tired to wake up, days that she just would like to sleep in and days that she was too sick to get up. Yet, she always made breakfast. Why? Because she loved us. Her love is stronger than her own interests and desires. She wanted the best for us and were committed into doing the best for us whether or not she felt like doing it.

Today, I saw this in my daily inspirational calendar.

" The proof that our relationship is right with God is that we do our best whether we feel inspired or not."

Looking back at my mother's exemplary behaviour, I thought of my relationship with God.

Have I been weary doing my best for God?
Have I failed to pick up my cross and follow Him as He told me to?
Have I slacked and sleep in just because I did not feel like waking up to pray and thank God for the new day?
Have I turned down someone in need just because I was not inspired?

Let's strive to do our best for God whether or not our emotions feel like it. "Be ready in season and out of season" - 2 Timothy 4:2

Let's keep up the race else we fall behind and lose the prize. May we able to say, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." - 2 Timothy 4:7

Monday, April 23, 2012

The Light of the World

A bright light illuminates the dark tunnel,
Deep into the ocean a loving gaze behold,
Reflections of dazzle and foils of dust,
A dignified grandeur beyond a human's grasp

Unconventional and unthinkable in zillions of ways,
The light came and penetrate the slums of the earth,
Sloth and filth it invaded to the very core,
Bloody and gore it quenched and dimmed its rays

Along the steps of shame and disgust,
The light disguises as smallest of them all,
Quietly shining in a defeated-like arena,
Carrying bubbles of sins and afflictions galore

Passion burned and wiped out the gentle light,
Killing the faintest flicker of glimmer ever existed,
Earthquakes arose manifesting the horrors of life
Bringing to extinction any hope that was left

Three days it took to rise beneath darkness,
The light shining brighter than heaven itself,
Permeating the deepest recesses of humanity,
Never again darkness would prevail

Victorious and glorious is the light of the world,
Full of mystery and secrets of the angels,
A divine star shining and leading mankind,
Sparkling and free like diamonds in the sky

John 8:12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Mother's broth makes me think of orphans and God

A mother's broth is always the best..
Well, biologically I have one mother but in reality, I have many mothers.
Both my mother and my two aunts are like my real biological mothers and not to mention many other spiritual mothers.
I really cannot imagine growing up without them.

Last night I was sipping soup made by my aunt, packed by my mum and brought to me by my sweet niece all the way across the ocean and I felt heaven's touch. It was really delicious. Probably took my mum and aunt many shopping trips to get all the ingredients and hours to cook it. Blessed am I to beget such love!

In the midst of enjoying my soup alone, my mind wandered to many orphans who probably never have a mother's love in their lives. I thought of thousands of children living in the streets because they have no one to look after them. I thought of troubled homes, mothers with drug addictions, single mothers who are not even of legal age yet fighting on their own and perhaps gave up halfway, mothers who loved vanity more than their motherhood...what would happen to them? Who would show them the way?

Many kids grew up with a void in their hearts and deep inside, they remained a broken-hearted little child with a man-made shield covering their hearts to hide their brokenness, insecurities and hurts. They carved an image  to be someone strong and secure, building a wall around themselves where no one can ever get near the fragile heart of theirs. For fear of getting hurt, they lived a life of pretense and sometimes they do not realize it till their death beds. How do I know? Because....I was like that. The pains of growing up without a Father even though I had such a loving mother.

So where do these kids go?

If you're one of them, lost and alone, an orphan or have parents who seem like they do not care at all.. Someone cares.

God cares.

He watches every single move you make. He knows when you breathe and when you're awake. He knows every nerves and veins in your body. He knows your every thoughts, desires and deepest hurts in your heart. How does He know all this? Because He made you. Not your father or your mother but God made you.

He said:
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." - Jeremiah 1:5

He loves you so much. If only you know how much He loves you, you would come running into His hands. So fear not, you are not alone. You are uniquely shaped and even if you're the only person in the world, He would still send His son , Jesus to die for you. There is no one like you. 

Even if your parents leave you. He has promised that He will never forget or forsake you. 

"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! - Isaiah 49:15

I cannot reach every homeless kid in the world but if you happen to read this, know that your Heavenly Father loves you very much and He wants you to know He has plans for you.

He promised in Jeremiah 29:11, 
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I pray for you and I hope to see you in heaven where we will all be united with our Heavenly Father.

God bless.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Divine Mercy

Many churches in the world today celebrates God's Divine Mercy.

There is no sin too big that God cannot forgive and there is no sin too small that God cannot see.
God wants to forgive you and cleanse you of all your sins. He wants to give you a new life. A life of hope and of joy. He cannot do it if you do not let Him. No matter what you have done in your life, no matter what your situation is, God is pleading to you to come back to Him.

He will turn your life around. Why? Because He loves you. He loves you so much that He suffered excruciating pains and agony by being nailed on the cross and died for you. His mercy is that great. Trust in his mercy.

Of all the attributes of God, mercy is one of His' greatest.

Jesus appeared to Faustina Kowalska and told her,. "The more a soul trusts, the more it will receive. Souls that trust boundlessly are a great comfort to Me, because I pour all the treasures of My graces into them. I rejoice that they ask for much, because it is My desire to give much, very much.... The soul which will trust in My mercy is most fortunate, because I Myself take care of it.  No soul that has called upon My Mercy has been disappointed or brought to shame. I delight particularly in a soul which has placed its trust in My goodness....Let no soul fear to draw near to Me, even though its sins be as scarlet." 

Isaiah 1:18 "....Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.

I invite you to come to the feet of the Cross. Come to Jesus and let Him embrace you with His mercy. There is nothing to fear. God wants you to come back to Him. Hesitate no longer.

If your life has been plagued with sins and you feel there is no turning back and you feel that there is no meaning to life anymore, come to Jesus. Tell Him that you trust in Him and in His mercy. He will lift you up and He will pour His healing graces on you.

I would like to end this post with a picture.

Look at His loving gaze. He longs to embrace you. Trust in His mercy. That is all that is needed.

Jesus, I pray for this person reading this right now..
This is my faith and trust in you that you will pour your mercy on him or her and may this soul be saved.
May you lift him or her out from his or her misery and may he or she always trust in your mercy and love.

Thank you Jesus.

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Angel Painting

I always write but never really posted up pictures.

Today I thought I should share some of my art.

Here is a painting that I have done. It is now gracefully hanging on my sister's bedroom wall. I used it for my facebook cover timeline and I also have it printed on a bag. It is printed on my namecard too. For some reason, I feel the painting relates to me a lot.


I named it Angel Painting because most people I know calls me Angel.

God bless.

A New Heart

The heart is an interesting organ.
Delicate and small, it is the most vital part of your body.
Working every second to pump blood and oxygen, it brings life to you.
Intricately designed with patterns of veins and tissues, it is an amazing sight to behold.
A person intrigued with the art of science will probably tell you that.

Science put aside, the heart is also where we keep all the deepest emotions and feelings.
All the past hurts, happiness and memories. It is like a huge hard disk that stores every single agenda since the day you were born.

Have you ever woken up suddenly with the past haunting you?
Or you ever literally felt heart pain piercing through your chest because of a hurt so painful that it is choking you?
Have you ever watched a movie and cried like a baby because it reminded you of the wounds you carry.
Have you ever been abused so badly as a child that you still carry the scars in you unknowingly and your current relationships are hurting because you let the scars manifest?

All of us have been hurt one way or another
It is only human that we will feel the hurts and sadness
Many of us however carry these hurts like sackbags and carry them all throughout our life
The files of grudges that never seem to be erased from your hard disk: your heart.

If you do, your heart will be overloaded and congested with a thousand expired files that are no longer relevant. It's not  even usable or beneficial. It makes your heart slow and malfunctioning. Remember when you crash your computer because you have too many unwanted files waiting to be thrown into the recycle bin.

Many of us might even be unaware of these trashy files of grudges, unforgiveness and wounds of past hurts that we are bringing into our future.

Ask God to bring you back and heal you of all your hurts, starting right from the womb.
Ask God to restore you and reveal to you anyone that you need to forgive. Perhaps it is you yourself that you need to forgive.
Ask God to cleanse you of your sins. There is no sin too big that God cannot forgive. Look at the cross. His mercy is that great. Read up on His Divine Mercy and doubt no longer.
Finally, ask God to give you a new heart. It is better than detoxing as some residues may still remain.

God loves you and He needs your heart.
You may have given Him your time and money and talents but have you given Him your heart?

He longs for you to live in fullness and abundant joy.
Allow Him to take full control of your heart.

Ezekiel 36:26
 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh

Blue Mountains - Make Each Day Count(Titanic)

Watching Titanic has reignited my passion for life and for arts..
"Make each day count", Jack Dawson said..

It made me wonder..
Have I lived to the point that I made each day count or did I merely drift through life just taking care of the chores that was thrown at me?

The past few months have been a little under the dark clouds..
Most of the time I am either juggling work or fighting the symptoms of fibromyalgia..
There have been days that I could not walk at all, days that throw me into phases of depression due to extreme fatigue and days where I am numbed by pain that seemed to be piercing me every other minute..
There were days that I wished I could just go home and sleep because my tiredness was like a chain holding me down to my bed..

Mum sent me Dr.Colbert's book on fighting fibromyalgia and I decided to try the anti-candida diet that he suggested in his book.

I looked back at my life..
I was always active, thrived on certain competitions and socialising..
And I had days of "solo" reflection where I loved to just chill on my own and do my painting..
As a child, I loved to lie on my tummy and passionately drew girls with different characters and I would conjure up in my head what they would wear and drew them on paper..all without a worry of time or chores
I loved books too..
I used to just lounged on my sofa, grabbed a book between my fingers and poured my soul into reading them..eventually led me to writing..and now I couldn't possibly stop although I passion isn't burning anymore..

Books and arts are definitely two of my list of passions.
Have I make a big deal out of these two for God?

I don't know but I want to make a new resolution. The Easter season has just begun. It's a new beginning.

I want to live passionately. Armed with full vigour and filled with joy, that's the kind of bubble I want to be!

Somehow I had let fibromyalgia took the better of me in days that I felt lazy to fight..
Somehow it also made me relied on God's strength..
There were days where I could not even lift myself out from my bed but when I think of the responsibilities expected from me..I told God I truly need His strength..otherwise how could I do His work? ( He's my big boss by the way and I'm sure He's yours too)..true enough, His grace is sufficient..He always give me His strength to move through the days, to complete the tasks that was laid on me
I am learning to depend on Him..
I am learning to truly lean on Him..
I am learning to finally grasp the truth that indeed nothing is impossible with Him

He is teaching me to trust in His strength and not mine..for without Him, I am clearly nothing.
That's the beauty of the 'blue mountains' in our life..when you think the problems you have is too large to handle, throw it at Jesus!
You will be surprised that you will be granted sufficient graces to walk it through

No saints go through life without the 'blue mountains'. Abraham had to go through the crazy hot desert to reach the promised land. He trusted God and endured the journey leaving behind his comfortable home. The late Mother Teresa continued to tend to the poor despite her poor health when she was so sick at her old age. Nick Vujicic, born without limbs but happily preaching the word of God without complains despite his discomforts and disabilities to do what normal people can do.

Who am I to fret over a little discomfort and pain that is sent my way?

Where is that little girl who loved books and drawings?

She is still here fighting and recovering...yes, I am talking about me!

Make each day count
Who knows if my ship might sink tonight? Do I give up and die, sinking with it? Or do I promised that I will never let go of God?

Rose promised that she will not let go and would live. Jack lived by saving her life..a hero.

Either way, I am not letting go of God's hands. I know He will guide me through this blue mountain and I shall breathe passionately again..

With my books and my arts, one on the each hand, I shall live and make each day count :)

I hope you will too because life is short.
If you have been tired of life, and had let the chores of life drained you off your passions..think back on what you used to enjoy as a kid..what talents do you have that you can use to glorify God?

Make a big deal out of it and I pray that God may grant you strength so He will perfect you to fulfil His miSsion on earth for you!

"The Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my victory. He is my God and I will praise Him; He is my Father's God and I will extol Him! - Exodus 15:2

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Fighting Fibromyalgia

It's 3 am in the morning
I was awakened in pain all over
I couldn't sleep
It's personal and I should not be blogging about my condition
However, perhaps it will help someone who are facing the same battle as I do.
I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia.
It's been a challenging experience.
Some days you're ok, some days u are in pain all over
It's like piercing pain poking u simultaneously on all spots.
There are thousand and one symptoms that are even more challenging than the pain itself.
Every morning is a struggle for me.
Every day is a struggle for me.
Every night is a struggle for me.
I am trying to make lifestyle changes.
It's a condition no one will understand because it doesn't seem chronic enough to lead to death but yet your quality of life just go down.
Every morning, I wake up begging God to give me His strength.
Otherwise I will perish..otherwise I could not get out of bed.
If you're like me; fighting fibromyalgia..I pray you don't give up.
God understands and you maybe wondering why you? But ask why not you?
I know I will conquer this disease and be healed stronger than ever before..
So don't give up! Don't be discouraged because the Lord has plans for you.
Jeremiah 29:11
For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope.
We humans are too weak but with God nothing is impossible.
Get up my child and be filled with God's strength!
May the good Lord help us in fighting fibromyalgia!