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Heavens are glowing yet your sadness is growing,
The rainbow is smiling yet your sorrows are piling,
Heartbreak and tears breathing into my face,
Wishing to stop the time to catch those tears in my embrace

If I were a nightingale, I would sing and melt those bitterness away,
If I were a sunflower, I would beam with my petals shining on your dark nights,
If I were a buoy, I would let you float on me washing your burdens away,
If I were a bee, I would stung you and remind you that I am near you,
If I were a tree, I would shelter and protect you from all those hurts,
If I were a needle, I would weave and mend your broken heart with my thread of gold

But I am only human
I can only sit by your side
Even if you do not see or hear
I can only wish and pray
Spring will come soon and the budding happiness will bloom
Casting away the sorrows of winter
Perhaps then I can see a smile
Not from your face but from within your heart

Silence with the Waves

The sound of waves seem so near yet so far,
Bringing up tears and drowning endless sorrows,
The silence on the beach was long yet to be missed,
A stillness acquired by chance to grasp the peace surpassing understanding,
Looking up to the tears of the moon and the stars,
Longing to console and caress but out of reach

Drawing on the sand hoping to reach out,
Hearts are closed tightly as the night becomes damper,
A gloomy light penetrates the surface of the sand,
A sprinkle of hope in the midst of total darkness
But soon gone as the darkness grew stronger

The waves continue to roar breaking the silence,
Yet the moon and the stars stood far away,
Shedding tears that never seem to end,
Wallowing in the sadness beyond centuries,
It hurts so bad knowing they cannot be reached,
It hurts even more knowing they are bleeding through the night,
It hurts the most to sit and gaze into the sorrows of the moonlight,
Weeping in silence with the waves,
Alone on the beach

Michael Glatze

I came upon a very interesting article about him.
I thought I would share it here.

http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=56487

Who is he?
He's an ex-gay activist and this is an interview about him.
His life testimony is not only interesting but mind-opening.
www.michaelglatze.com is his blog.

Beware of the Wide Roads

A cloud of perversion hangs itself,
Multiplying in split seconds,
Slaying innocent minds and hearts,
Preaching not truth but deceit,
Blinding and shut your eyes from light

Bubbles of darkness bobbing up and down,
In the stale air where freshness is struggling to exhale,
Why stand up and be different you say,
When everyone in the world is doing it,
It can't be wrong you say,
When it feels so right

Little did you know death traps disguised as angels of light,
Lurking just round the corner preying on you,
Malicious skies of deformed morality stood waiting with its doors wide open,
Waiting for the perfect time to seize,
Like a whore trapping your mind, body and soul

It will be too late before you are gripped by the harsh lessons,
Your precious treasure is gone and you're left with nothing but a broken shell,
It will be wise to turn away,
Not for your body's sake but for your soul of which you cannot behold,
Beware and listen my child,
For the road that leads to true happiness is narrow and few finds it

Procrastination and Wasted times

There are days when I wake up feeling angry at myself for having wasted precious time.
I have a thousand and one things on my to-do list but I never seem to get it done.
Procrastination is a habit I really want to get rid of.
I don't know why I thrive on deadlines and acting on impulse on the things I feel like doing straight away and putting things less urgent in my drawers to collect dust.
As I look back, there are many things I could have accomplished.
Then again, I ask myself..are those things truly important to me or can I actually do without them?
Hmm...big sighs
I ask God to forgive me for the many times I wasted the gift of time He has given me when I should have put it into good use. do you feel the same? I hope you're not beating yourself up and brood over the wasted times as much as I do.
Let's not look back but make the most of today, all right??
I saw this.

"Forgive ourselves for all the things we didn't do. All the things we should have done. We can't get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened" - Morrie-

Very timely and wise..don't you think?

Happy Mother's Day

I have four mothers.
Technically one biological mother who gave birth to me..
I call her Mama Bong. Her life is a generous sacrifice for me..
I am her seed that has blossomed to who I am today thanks to her for bringing me to this world..
EE is like a mother to me too. She stayed with me since birth and her life of great love and hard labour has given me a chance to have an education and etc. She worked tirelessly and she is like a rose, carrying her fragrance everywhere she goes especially in her cooking.
My aunt Josephine whom I call Mummy since the moment I started to speak is also like a mother to me. She is truly a woman with so much love for all. She used to babysit me when I was young and I'm so glad to have her in my life. She's also a great cook. She's truly a mother of nations..
And last but not least, my heavenly Mama Mary. Through her one yes, she gave me my best friend, Jesus. His mother is also mine. A role model and a comforter, I'm glad to call her my own. She's never far away.
I can't explain how blessed I am to have four mothers to call my own.
There are many other women who are like mothers to me too, nurturing and teaching me..watching out for me all the time, aunties, teachers, nuns, popo, grannies..to name them would be impossible.
I am loved by so many mothers and I pray God will bless them for their great love and generous sacrifice to bring me to where I am today.
I love you and I thank you.

Occults and Magic

I woke up feeling extremely disturbed. How is it that an author who claimed to be a Christian that has inspired millions of people is actually involved in magic? I don’t know whether it is just a metaphor that he is using in his fictional books or he is truly involved in magic or just teasing about it but I pray that God will show him the truth and the light especially since many others look to him for inspiration. I do not condemn or judge this writer but do join me in praying that God will shed light on him and may his words be from God to guide and not to mislead.

I want to share with you a personal story of a person who was involved in the occults.

Sr. Emmanuel is born catholic. However, she was not very much into her faith and was ignorant of what the bible teaches. In college, she started playing with the occult like Ouija boards, fortune telling and etc. One day, she was offered a job to India but her employer asked that she be checked by an astrologer first. She went in to the astrologer and he came with a book, telling her everything of her life from the day she was born till she was 24. She was 24 when she visited him. He went on to tell what is going to happen to her till the age 30. He went on explaining that everything that happened to her was according to the planets, the movement of the stars and planets. She was filled with fear and was devastated that her life will depend on how the planets move. She suddenly thought of her Heavenly Father and felt like an orphan, separated from God.

Soon, she was depressed, consumed with all negativity and was feeling very low. One day, she decided she could not live any longer. She felt something gripping her heart and it was dying. She decided to commit suicide. She warned God that she would take her life at 5 pm. At that time, her sister happened to visit her and saw her devastating state. Her sister told her that she met a group of great charismatic and joyful people and asked her to visit them later in a prayer meeting. She blatantly refused. However, she had so much time till 5 pm so decided to go and see them.

The moment she stepped in the room, she could feel the joy and happiness of this group of people. She was reminded of the Acts of the Apostles that she had read long ago when she was young. She recalled saying that if she will ever find people who are so filled with the Holy Spirit and live guided by the spirit like the apostles back then, she will follow them. It was too late. She has decided to take her life.

She just sat there while they praised and worshipped. All of a sudden, a lady shouted and said that in their midst, there is someone who is going to meet death that very day and went on saying what this person did (meeting astrologer, etc). She was shocked and came to see this lady right after to find out who has told this lady about her. The lady answered that she did not know it was her but the Holy Spirit has revealed that someone is going to meet death.

The lady rebuked her for going to see the astrologer as it is forbidden by God. It was Satan who told the astrologer everything and of course, as a fallen angel he would be able to tell her past life story and her life in future was all a lie, a make-belief. Satan can never know someone’s future.

“Do you believe that Jesus would take all these demons away from you?” in a desperate state, she said yes but what was the use, her heart already felt like dying. She could not bear to live any longer.

“Do you believe that Jesus will heal and restore your heart?” the lady went on and she said yes.

A group of people started to pray over her and they sang in tongues. She felt Jesus coming to her and saving her from the ditch of death and touched her deeply. After the prayers are over, she was freed. She was no longer anxious and the grip in her heart was gone. She checked the time and it was 5 pm. God has come to save her at the appointed time of her death.

Jesus saved her life so she decided to give her life back to God. None of the things that the astrologer foretold has happened to her. She is now a member of the Beatitudes community and has lived in Medjugorje since 1989. Now, besides attending to pilgrims in Medjugorje, she also travels around the world preaching and has written several books. I was privileged to attend one of the talks of which I was greatly encouraged and enlightened.

The mercy of God is so great J

Lessons learnt from here as told by Sr. Emmanuel:

Avoid all things occult: Ouija boards, astrology, divination, bomoh, magic, tarot cards, palm reading, fortune telling, horoscope, wearing charms, omulets, crystals that heal and etc.

Deuteronomy 18:9-12

When you come into the land that the LORD your God is giving you, you must not learn to imitate the abhorrent practices of those nations. No one shall be found among you who makes a son or daughter pass through fire, or who practices divination, or is a soothsayer, or an augur or a sorcerer, or one who casts spells, or who consults ghosts or spirits, or who seeks oracles from the dead. For whoever does these things is abhorrent to the Lord; it is because of such abhorrent practices that the LORD your God is driving them out before you.

Abhorrent means abomination to the Lord. It is going against the Lord. It is spiritual adultery. When you practice occult, you are entering Satan’s camp and give him an entry into your heart and into your soul.

Have a good FEAR of the LORD.

Do not consult the dead. Do not ever speak to the dead. You can pray for their souls but do not speak to them. If ever you find souls appearing to you, it is usually a disguise by the evil spirits. If you feel disturbed by these appearances, speak to your pastor or priest.

Avoid fortune telling. Satan can never know our future. God alones know our future and our future is in God’s hands. Most of the time, we want to know our future so we can be in control of our life but this is wrong. Jesus says,

“Trust in Me.”

“You don’t need to know the future.”

“The grace you have today is just enough for today and not for tomorrow. You need not worry about tomorrow for The Father will provide everything. The Holy Spirit will lead you.”

Read also Deuteronomy 4: 23 -25, 5: 7-8

Trust in Him

Habakkuk 3:19

The Lord my God is my strength

He makes me leap like the deer

He guides me to the high places